There's someone out there for me, but...

There's someone out there for me.... and I've met her. I've even met her twice. She's smart... I like (need actually) smart. She's charming, funny, engaging, and interesting. She's super sexy... sensual, seductive, stimulating. She wants the same kind of relationship (arrangement) that I'm looking to find. She makes me smile from ear to ear when we chat. She's the one I turn on my IM for, awaiting her next pop-up into my day or night. She sound's perfect doesn't she?

BUT

She has absolutely no time for me. That's how far down the priority list I am. I could be naive (or a complete fool), but I honestly believe that from all of our conversations that she truly does want to meet again. I just haven't been able to crack into the "important enough to make time" category yet. Don't get me wrong... her career and business should be important. As a single mom, her children definitely need to be a priority. Her community work means a lot... as do her friends. That puts a relationship pretty far down the list (if it's even on the list).

SO

It's frustrating. It's been three months since I saw her and we chat frequently about getting together... but haven't done so. I've committed to making the time... I just need to get on her calendar. If the stars ever align in the heavens and we do get together... it will be magical. It's frustrating to know deep down that this could really work and be great for both of us but is getting squashed by other priorities. It's frustrating to have finally met someone that's so attractive on so many different levels and not be able to see (instead of just chat) with her. It's frustrating that she can't (or won't) find the time.

I'm frustrated but will continue on being optimistic and confident until directed not to do so. I'm frustrated but will continue to keep asking her out, subtly and otherwise. I'm either setting myself up for something fantastic or tragically devastating. It means a lot to me so I'll forge ahead... head held high and heart wide open.